Simple Words

2011-09-10T23:14:00.002+08:00

Incoherent thoughts..

A year ago, this day.

I bid farewell to my 18 year old self, and gladly welcome the 19th year of my life. Full of anticipation, I must say.

19 years old. A step nearer to freedom, a step closer to the society.

Probably somewhat further from the ones who raised me.

Somehow, things crashed.

A year on, I'm almost ready to greet the digit 2 into my age.

Almost..

If only I could still greet the 20 year old self with much happiness.

How did I lost so much?

The happiness and rights of staying innocent and well-protected from all sorrowful.

The faith, love and strongest pillar of my life.

How could he not be here for me?

'Happy Birthday'..

What a mockery to my fate.

2011-07-29T22:51:00.002+08:00

Perhaps it's about perception.
Maybe a change can make it better.
Maybe putting a mask over the ugly truth is a way of improvisation.

Humans are such tools to reality, as to society.
We're all manipulated in some way. Sometimes by others, by fate, by ourselves.
Was it a gift or a flaw that many things and issues became very clear following the absence of a shelter over my life?
Sometimes I feel undiscerning to things happening around me,
yet sometimes, facts became scarily lucid.
We all strive to keep things together, oblivious to the surroundings.
Yet we remain clearly aware of the dark side of the truth that we've been trying to hide.

Through years of living, we killed some values and characteristics within us.
Me? I find my optimism dead.
Can't remember if I killed it or it was just a 'timely loss'.
Then again, doesn't quite matter to me, after I perceived it to be a lie.

After all, "we're alive, but some part of us have been dead for awhile."

2011-07-12T19:10:00.002+08:00

I have a dream,
now I had a dream.
You took it with you as you left.
Will you please hold on to this dream like how I still do,
so we could fulfill it together the next time we meet?

I like to look up at the clouds and wonder which of them are you resting at.
I like to watch TV in the living room and hope that you will be sitting at where you always do.
I like to believe that you'll visit me every night while I'm sleeping so occasionally, you could read the letters that I left beside me
I like to think that you don't visit me so often in my dreams now because you're having tons of fun with your new friends, or is busy making tools and storage space for your new home, or is baking goodies for your family and friends there.

You know that I love you, don't you?
I hope you do...

2011-07-06T00:11:00.002+08:00

I need you.

I need you.

I need you.

A million things in my mind.

But I still need you.

2011-06-19T21:34:00.003+08:00

I never knew the human mind possess the capacity to withhold so much pain.

Going through each day as a painful cycle,
wishing none of this happened,
and that you will be there.

Every fall hurts more without you there to pick me up
every success taste bitter without you to share the joy.
I got a job, I'll be getting good pay, I'm learning how to cook, I'm learning how to handle house chores
But you were not with me
To share my achievements
To feedback on my cooking
To tell me if I'm doing the chores the right way

Why did everyone else get to embark on their journeys in life with their parents witnessing every steps, but not me?

I need you

2011-06-15T22:38:00.002+08:00

I'm Ok, I'm Ok, I'm Ok.
Bloody big fat liar!

It hurts. It fucking hurts!

WHY WHY WHY!!!!

2011-06-12T20:42:00.002+08:00

Selfless love.

To me,
it means to love someone unconditionally,
without any limits,
without any complaints
It believes all thing,
and endure all things.

How many of us possess the courage
to submit your life to care for your loved ones?
And for someone who willingly sacrificed his all,
just to provide peace and comfort for his loved one,
how do the receivers ever repay this debt?

To lost someone who can love beyond all limits,
I never knew that a human had that capacity to endure that much pain.

I always forget to forget you.
Every now and then,
I would still find myself expecting the impossible.
Expecting that I was actually in a coma for more than a month,
and this was all part of the horrible nightmare.

Because reality hurts so much.
I wish none of this had happen,
I wish you are still right here by my side.
I wish nothing changed.
I wish that I could have the chance to tell you how much I love you

2011-06-04T21:18:00.002+08:00

I wish for a reunion dinner.
The default family of 4.
Sitting around the round table.
Enjoying the simple home fares.

It will never come true.

2011-06-01T20:24:00.003+08:00

Exactly one month ago,
this moment,
I was at my void deck,
wondering why the hell was I there.

Exactly one month ago,
12 hours back,
I stepped into the coldest and saddest place.
I heard crying and sniffing from people whom I do not know.
Everyone was teary eyed.
Yet no one had to strength to console anyone.
Why didn't anyone said that we were there to meet him?
Instead they said I was there to collect his body.
Since when was he referred to as just a body?

Exactly one month ago, during dawn,
I woke up, registering the most painful fact into my head.
I wished it was all a nightmare,
and I would wake up and run up to him and give him a hug and tell him how much he meant to me.

One month has passed since he left.
Sometimes, it just seems like he's just away, on a work trip.
Just that this time, none of us know where he went, and for how long.
But he'll definitely take care of himself well.

And one day when I finally get to meet him again,
he will shower me with gifts from his trip,
lots of exotic accessories cos he said that's what youngster wear - stuff that he don't understand
of course, lots of food - he said that he don't want others to think that he stole my food

Wonder if he misses me,
just like how I miss him

2011-05-25T19:35:00.000+08:00

“One short sleep past, and we wake eternally

And death shalt be no more, Death thou shalt die.”

- John Donne

2011-05-20T20:59:00.002+08:00

你总说时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得

未必明天就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛看你的信会痛
连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
他留在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛

想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上张扬过哀伤
那是重多么

寂寞的倔强

你拆了城墙让我去流浪
在原地等我把自己捆绑

你没说

你也会软弱
需要倚赖我

我就装不晓得
自由移动自我地过

我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的

我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着

你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么

你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

2011-05-12T10:32:00.000+08:00

Pictures like this will never come across as something
I would reblog in tumblr,
till the death of the man of my life.

Every word touched my heart, my scar.
Death was never suppose to come anywhere near close to me.
Yet on that fateful night, it brushed across me
and took him away.

I promise to be well. I will be. And I will keep trying.
I was not suppose to think of it this way,
but I can't keep the thoughts away from my mind.

Why me? I'm only 19.
Three more weeks to my graduation ceremony.
A couple more years to me earning money and you to go into retirement.
And then a few more years and you could put the veil on my head and give my hand to another man you would trust.
And then you could hold your grandchildren and have them sit on your lap like how I used to.

Was heaven punishing me for expecting too much?

It hurts.
It hurts to miss someone who have been there for every single day of my living life,
and never to have him there ever again.
It hurts to accidentally expect that little cough or sniff,
to expect him coming home after work in the evening...
And only to remember the reality.

He's gone and never will be back.
He never made it home...

2011-05-08T14:04:00.002+08:00

It had been a long traumatic week.

I always thought I'm lucky enough to escape any terrible things.
The reality is more than just painful.
My father meant the world to me. And my world crashed.

The pain was beyond excruciating.
Watching him not replying me for the first time.
Lying in the ICU bed, with all the tubes and cables.
I held his hands, but he won't hold mine back.
His hands felt cold, but I can't warm it up.
I called out to him, he can't open his eyes.
I have so much to say to him, he didn't seem to have the time to listen.

I watched the man of my life fade away.
The big strong man couldn't even breathe on his own.
I watched the number on monitor displaying his heartbeat decreasing
60+...40+...30+...
The red Zero on test papers made me sad enough.
The red Zero displaying on the monitor felt like a bomb that crashed right through my world.
My father went away. Just like this.

This man, the man who held my hand when I was about to fall,
the man who tickled me and made me laugh like a retard,
the man who pat my back to sleep when I was small,
the man who devised all the interested gadgets at home for our convenience,
the man who had a pair of skinny legs but huge tummy and walked with a limp,
the man who says yes to every of my request,
gone and never will be back.

The sight of him, dead in the ICU
The sight of him in the mortuary slightly bloated, body wrapped in a white plastic sheet
The sight of him being carried into the void deck
The sight of him lying in the coffin
The sight of his photo in the obituary page
The sight of him in the coffin, being carried into the van
The sight of the coffin, slowly, being wheeled into the furnace
The sight of the fire in the furnace, and the coffin carrying him being pushed inside
The sight of what was left of him after cremation
The feeling of holding his bones, with my bare hands.

All these, from someone whom I had lived with, for almost 20 years of my life.
His cough and footsteps and voice filled my days and nights.

The scar and pain is etched deeply in my heart.
But I know, one day the pain will lessen.
My friends and loved ones are still by my side.
I'll be strong, I'll be OK.
Papa will be proud.
I know he will be.

Back to basics

2011-04-07T21:46:00.004+08:00

I have been spending more time at Tumblr since I started appreciating the wide array of random shots and quotes that reflects my thoughts or desire without having to put together words and sentences into a blog post.

Still, I thought I should still provide a smidgen of updates for whoever that is still reading my blog.

Internship currently is not fun.
I guess the previous company has set a very high benchmark on how an office culture should be and how an intern should be treated. I do not appreciate being present only for the help I can render and only to be forgotten about when I have completed my task.
Many things about the current company that I can rant on and on, but I guess I shall not use this as a platform to spew my complaints.
But as the saying goes - Going gets tough, tough gets going.

Got to brace myself for a stormy three months.

On a sidenote, am looking forward to meeting my friends on Friday and Saturday!

And as I'm typing this post,
guess what's my boyfriend doing in camp - Watching fighting fishes fight.
Inserts dash-dot-dash.

2011-03-18T21:14:00.002+08:00

I merely wanted to study.
Why do you think that the whole world only evolves around you,
like nobody else existed.
Or rather, I should have never existed.

Why did you have to say that to me as if I am making a terrible mistake for wanting to study?
Why can't you have just given me better advise or try working a solution out positively
instead of saying those things to me?

Why, why were you never there for me?

A little something

2011-03-01T20:37:00.005+08:00

Should I call this a term break for myself?

I had finally ended my five months, one week and one day long internship with CAG.
Decided to spend my time as wisely as possible during this two-weeks break, since I'm not travelling.
Today was pretty well-spent.
Started my day healthy, with an apple.
Perhaps cultivating more healthy habits will keep the doctors away.
Watched an epi of Sex and the City today before packing my table and fixing up a paper tray I bought from IKEA previously.
Went for a jog/run in the evening. Yeap, pretty determined to not see any doctors until my next appointment for my gastric.

Just a little update here, I'll be commencing my internship with Weber on 14 March.
Meanwhile, I've been sourcing for suitable place for a degree - with suitable school fees too.
Alright, that's about all for now.
Have been tumblr-ing alot recently,

Here's someting

A little glitter

2011-02-16T20:14:00.003+08:00

Need some glamour in my life

2011-02-10T19:16:00.002+08:00

I fought hard for my grades for the last 5 semesters,
so hard that I forgot all about my health.
After that long fight, I can't believe I now still have to fight against all that health problems that follows.

You might think I was stupid, thus ending up like this.
I can't argue that I'm not, but my only rationale is because
I am not smart, thus I had only to put in double the effort, to achieve that minimal result.
However, for that much effort I had put in, I'm now too tired, to fight for my own health.

I can't describe how disappointed I was, when I found out I still weigh 37.5kg
I had a heavy dinner the night before, and the weight was taken after lunch..
The feeling of trying to stuff myself even when I do not feel like eating at all is disgusting,
and struggling to prevent myself from puking after every swallow is sick.
And after all that, all I weigh was less than what I thought I should be.

After that giddy and out of breathe moment on my way home yesterday,
my motivation level to fight for my health dipped further.
If even the doctors can't stand the number of problems I have,
how much longer can I stand myself?

I ought to be put to sleep.

Blog post dedication to Ms Chang

2011-01-29T22:40:00.003+08:00

On my 600th post, I dedicate it to the most expensive vase in my life, in fact, priceless.

Chang Si Hui hit the big 2 today!
She has officially said goodbye to the little '1'!

Chang,
I'm not going to hope that you will like the celebration earlier, cos You BETTER like it! wahaha!
Though its not a huge birthday blast and I deeply regret that you can go home still looking clean and presentable, you had better still feel that dozen dosage of love from us! :D

As much as we will like you to be smarter, hmm... sigh.. I think its better you stay niang and silly la. Haha
Please kindly start searching for your beloved golden tortoise, and make sure you find one who loves you deep deep deep deep deep deep deep one. :D

Have a happy 20th!

come and go

2011-01-17T20:30:00.002+08:00

Hi, my abandoned blog.
With all the facebook, tumblr, youtube and other social media sites,
I hardly made time for blogger. Since no one probably reads it anyway,
except nothing better to do buggers or virus posting stupid comments
in my tagboard.

Life now has been mundane yet hectic.
There's so many people whom I wish to meet up with,
yet not able to do so with my current schedule.
In addition, I'm getting more broke with that little allowance I'm receiving from my internship.
Not that I'm really complaining, but a bit more allowance will definitely make my life better.

Sigh.

Ok, I've lost attention in blogging. :P
Bye!
Will come back with I rmbr blogger again.

square

2010-11-29T23:12:00.000+08:00

What if one day, you start doubting the meaning of your presence?
The purpose of living was all wrong
and all that little things left you thought you had was actually worth nothing it all.

The time, effort and emotions spent boil down to nothing.
What greets you after that long, fearsome fall was emptyness
The constant search for warmth ended only with the deathly cold
Screams of help turned into that golden silent because it was finally understood,
you never existed.

Its a break!

2010-11-07T16:42:00.004+08:00

Once in a while I'll remember I still have a blog.
But usually its during times when I don't have access to the internet.

Now life's pretty much as interesting as the Channel 8 drama these days.
Something's happening, but easily predictable.
Internship had been fun, as usual.
A pretty much happening week at work, esp having a 'happening' incident on the last day of work, before welcoming the long weekend thanks to Deepavali.

So far, a good day to mark the end of my long weekend.
Chips, drinks, funny movie, couple of epi of Sex & da City and a few hours with the boyfriend.

Gonna expect a busy week ahead at the airport!

Little update

2010-10-12T21:17:00.002+08:00

Well so after some time of abandoning this blog,
here I am again!

Second week into internship at the airport,
and I must say I'm enjoying myself very much.
Only complain would probably be the longer hours that I'm getting as compared to others,
and the minimal pay which I'm going to receive.

Anyway, just a little something about my work life.
Media monitoring every morning.
I believe I can go back to NP and tell Mr Ashraf that at least one of his student is finally reading the papers!
Besides monitoring the media, its little tasks hand down by colleagues.

Love everyone there.
Its an awesome great team of people!
Another plus point about working there is all the benefits which I'm enjoying.
Staff discounts in many many things, esp cosmetics and perfumes.
Gonna wait for my pays and shop till i drop! :D

Young at heart

2010-09-21T23:32:00.003+08:00

Finally after so many days of outings,
I got to stay home today.
Out of all the usual slacking around in front of my com,
I watched a movie from my downloads -
Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging.

A summary of the plot of the movie.
A girl named Georgia and her clique of girls
are in their 'growing up blues'.
They are young girls wanting to be everything like an adult.

And I wonder,
why are teenagers trying so hard to be the adults, while adults out there are reminiscing the past and getting excited like a child when they see a swing or some 'old' candies from their childhood times?
I'm not judging 'those teenagers', because I'm guilty of being one of them myself.

Maybe its the media influence,
'women dressed in Prada and drinking in a nice bar = successful'.
We dress to create an image for ourselves, while people looking for that certain image in us look at how we are dressed.
True? false?
But what about teenagers heading down to clubs and bars so very often.
Was drinking REALLY that awesome, or its a sign to show that we are mature?
hmm..
My guy asked me "what's so fun about drinking?"
My confessions:
The first couple of times, because it makes me feel that I'm of age.
But now, I believe I've grown out of that idea
and have a more valid explanation when I'm drinking.

Media influences and social trends can't be changed,
but I think while we're all busy 'being adults',
its good to look back at the present and appreciate what we have,
being people of our age.

This has got to end!

2010-09-15T22:57:00.002+08:00

I looked at the calendar the other day, and gasp.
I only have about 2 weeks left, before internship starts.
And while many are enjoying their holiday,
I'm still going to school everyday thanks to docpro.
We thought Monday was our 'last day'. We couldn't complete.
We thought Tuesday was our 'last day'. We couldn't complete.
Today, we swore it was our last day.
Thanks to Avid machine, we did not manage to complete.
But since we're only left with exporting the video,

I SWEAR TOMORROW IS THE LAST DAY!!!!!!!!

2010-09-12T12:26:00.004+08:00

On the day before my 19th Birthday,
I went to TheFaceShop to get myself a moisturiser.
In about 10 mins, I bought whatever the lady recommended
without looking at what exactly the moisturiser helps in.

Upon going back, I decided to look at the details of the bottle and there it is,

"age defying skincare..."

-stabs self-

Back to basic

2010-09-03T22:02:00.002+08:00

I arrive at Beatty for unit training today,
knowing things in the unit are not going to be the same.
Indeed things were different,
yet it brought back a tinge of familiarity
and a dozens of memories.

For almost the entire semester,
I've been completely drown in the life of a mass commer.
I'm almost suffocating with the hectic days and complexity of daily life.
It common knowledge that we grow up, adapt and change.
Yet, I've to admit that I'm no good with certain changes at times,
especially changes in people.

It feels good to be stepping on grounds containing so much happy memories.
Its nice to be reminded that life was that simple,
and people were that simple.
Honestly, I've not felt more alive being myself today!

blows off the dust

2010-08-31T00:28:00.002+08:00

Thought its time I should be back here to do some spring cleaning for my blog.
I had so many things in my mind recently,
but not many of which I strongly feel that I should pin down in words.
Nothing particular about this post, as usual,
I shall just deposit some current thoughts in my mind now.

26Aug marks the end of YOG.
Its probably a no biggie to any others, e.g MY GUY,
it does mean alot to the many of us who were heavily involved.
Seems that I'm not the only one suffering from the YOG-withdrawal syndrome!
If I have enough time, resource and energy,
I would very much love to make a thank-you card for every member of the team.
Sadly, every YOG days left me tired and brain dead by the time i reach home.

Involvement in YOG had also left our DocPro group
struggling with our documentary now.
Fortunately, deadline was extended
but progress was definitely slower than the other groups,
which kind of made us panic a little when comparing our progress with other groups.
Its sad knowing that this is the holidays,
yet we've still got assignments due and exams to study for!
There is lesser stress now, much lesser.
But I would very much love to have my holidays.

And speaking of holidays,
-sigh-
original excitement of escaping to Cambodia to get my mind off all the happenings here
is most probably gone,
due to foreseen/unforeseen circumstances :(
Still contemplating if I should harbor any hopes of going

Cough virus got me these days.
Some creature is tickling my throat every now and then :/
Almost lost track of the number of times i've almost puke
while coughing my lungs out. *not literally of course*

Alright thats all for now.
I've losing my attention while typing here
:P

With grace and angst

2010-08-20T00:21:00.003+08:00

The thought came to me once,

then twice.
And soon after, I started feeling it and hearing it so very often
I sometimes feel it screaming at me

They knock on the door of my heart and mind
asking me to let them through.
I wonder,
what if one day, i really did.

2010-08-16T23:30:00.002+08:00

Sometimes we take a step too big,
into a life that we never knew existed.
When you turn around felt that you should return to where you were,
you realised that all that you could do,
was move on from there.

We never really have a choice sometimes.
Where we were born, how we were raised, and who we might meet.
Many times, I wish that I could have more control of my life.

What if one day, I decide to use that every little courage hidden within the atoms of me
and walk away.
Would I then walk into a world of my desire?

cross on the back

2010-08-11T23:07:00.005+08:00

School SEEMS over,
this SEEMS to be the holiday,

All these are seemingly fake.

School was suppose to be over,
but DocPro was not yet submitted.
This is suppose to be the start of my holidays,
but I've signed up for YOG and is working my days and probably nights away.
I need a break, yet I need money as well.
Apparently, I chose to forgo longer holiday for the latter.
All thanks to my pathetic portfolio that needs some 'seasoning',
and my rapidly depleting balance in my bank acct.

There's so many things going on recently,
So many things churning in my mind.
I need a break.
A break away to stabilise my health, thoughts and emotions.
Somehow, I don't see that coming,
with that many things left undone .

As much as I feel the urge to insert a profanity here,
I shall keep it away now that I could still contain it.

2010-08-04T22:03:00.003+08:00

I sat down thinking
and then it dawned on me.
I miss myself.

I've been a nuisance in other's life.
Even my own.

Sometimes, we learn the hard way

2010-08-01T00:04:00.002+08:00

For the last 2 weeks,
I feel like my life was moving like a fast-forwarded clip.
Everything was moving so quickly
Long day in school, followed by rushing through assignments till the wee hours
I can't explain how grateful I am, for a more relaxing weekend.

Current modules left to clear are MASINA and DocPro.
Not to mention exams for MASINA and Medlaw. (in sept)
Can't wait for everything to be over.

After close to 2 and 1/2 year of poly madness,
I'm left with 1 more week.
After which would be my long awaited holiday, with 2 weeks dedicated to YOG.
A couple of things I wish to fulfill during this upcoming holiday.
Shall list them out when my holiday is here.

Received posting for my internship.
Not as awesome as I had expected.
I wanted events
But I got a more PR heavy+ abit of events position, at Changi Airport.
That's my luck I guess.
Shall make the best out of it
-sigh-

And I just realise, it is the first of August.
I... don't like this date.

wishful

2010-07-16T20:40:00.003+08:00

I secretly enjoy watching how my dad
pays attention to my mum sharing about how her day was, over dinner.
Not that her rants were particularly interesting.
In fact typical boring stuff compared to mine or even my dad's.
But it was very interesting,
looking at how my dad still responds and looks at her while she talks.

After having pails and pails of ice water
splash right in my face today (not literally of course)
for a moment I felt some warmth.
This week sucks. I hope my weekends give me a break.

life needs to get better

2010-07-15T00:00:00.002+08:00

So here I am, finally finding some time to blog amidst the crazy schedule.
July definitely is not the month for me, for my classmates, and even for my guy.
This week was totally crazy and bad, and mad for me.

Tuesday was crisis communication deadline,
Today was Convex test (which killed me),
Friday is BAE test, and WISP presentation.

Some rants about my convex test today.
1st question and I feel defeated.
Wasted some time thinking for some other questions in the front,
before realising that I had to hurry.
Last question was pretty 'do-able' for me,
but I had not enough time to complete it :(

Stayed back at school for PR, till 10pm+
We totally shot ourselves again, coming up with a brilliant idea yet having probs pulling it off.
Can't reveal much( we're a competitive bunch of people).
Masina was another shot too.
Choosing a topic that's difficult to work on.
Docpro, third shot for me. Choosing to film at Pulau Ubin during such hectic time.
Awesomezzz! I'm going to die!

To add to all this craps from work,
My grandma had to come and stay over at my house for a week.
Her snoring is killing my sleep :(
And as if this was not bad enough, I had to have my cramps this week.

Everything just suck. And i totally need a rest.

life after term break - bleak

2010-06-29T10:09:00.005+08:00

Looks like MASINA class today is cancelled, so decided to steal some time off to blog.
Guess I'm probably left with 2 readers now - Darling and Dear. haha

Life's pretty mundane now, with just work and work everyday.
But at least there was a highlight of the week last weekend.
My Officer boyfriend's commissioning ball.

Had loads of fun interacting with his friends,
enjoying games played at the ball,
Nominated for the best dressed couple, with a little 'catwalk' and an onstage kiss.
Awesomely fun time, with Lara capturing most of the moments and actions.
Gown with DSLR probably isnt as glam, but sure was worth the 'burden' :)

Darling, for more photos pls go FB. =D

And so that was last week.
this week would be bleak.
Did I mention I hate IS this sem?
-sigh-

Well at least my To-do list today is
- watch lord of the rings
- read Toy story 1 script
- IS-BAE

Im not slacking! Lord of the Rings was for COnvex. Haizz.....
If only all my assignments are as simple as this.

One

2010-06-20T00:59:00.004+08:00

The one who never fails to make me proud, and today was no exception.

My boyfriend is officially an SAF Officer as of 19th July 2010. =)

more than words

2010-06-13T01:27:00.003+08:00

Finally back to work, after about 1 month. $_$

Suppose to go for Kaivearn's bday party after work,
but due to my "No-time-limit-but-you-cannot-come-home-late" curfew,
had to give it a miss =/
But in exchange for not being able to attend,
I had a pleasant "surprise" from bf right from the time I'm dismissed from work. =D
Indeed I don't usually publicise such stuff,
but I just thought bf was damn awesome today!

First was a not-so-very pleasant surprise outside my workplace in the evening.
Next was his usual 'failed-surprise',
telling me unintentionally that he made Jap food for me for dinner(after pestering for handmade bento from him the day before)
=D
*Not expecting much for his jap food cos he said it was made in a hurry*
Headed to Suntec Sky garden,
and TADA!
Not exactly very presentable and restaurant standard food,
but there's
- Unagi
- Jap vinegar rice + Spices
- Cucumber
- tuna
- Fried salmon skin with Cucumber

Nothing special about the food, but it was the awesomest Jap food EVER! =D =D

Sorry for the anti climax,
but in case my bf starts floating after reading this,
I shall stop here and head to bed!
(Actually I'm just sleepy) Hee!

2010-06-11T22:40:00.003+08:00

Chanced upon this quote in tumblr, and it set me thinking.

I miss me, whoever I was 3 years ago.
I miss life, whatever it was 7 years ago.
Sometimes I thought it was a change for the better,
but times like now, I really wish I was still me.

This is so not happening

2010-06-09T11:01:00.004+08:00

F M L.....

Sinned at 1am

2010-06-09T00:48:00.003+08:00

About 10 more mins to 1am,
and i'm indulging in cheesecake now (Made by bf and 'Milo').
Stopping at half the thin slice, but equally sinful :(

Decided to spent a few minutes blogging here,
since it's been about a week since i've blogged.
Term break starts next week,
but no one(mass commer) in the right mind would call it a break.
For me, 6 assignments/tasks to be done during the hols.

Exhibition critique
Masina research
Medlaw Research
PR strategies and draft
DocPro proposal
PR assignment

-sigh-
Graduation seems so near, yet so far...

-SIGH-!!!!!!

Things will change, somehow

2010-06-01T21:20:00.002+08:00

Come to think of it, this semester seems to pass by really fast.
term break is coming in 2weeks time
of course, term break is never really a break :(

Food hunt over the past weekend with my guy was awesome.
Food pics uploaded in facebook.
Enough of all good food over the weekend,
its back to bread and snacks now that I've got to really save up.

Alot of 'investments' coming up.
Officer-to-be bf's commissioning ball, haircut, blazer, formal tops, heels, monthly prudential plan payment, bus concession and other miscellaneous stuff since I'm not getting pocket money these days.

And to make things worst, my tutee has to choose to take up some extra classes in school,
resulting in him not needing my tuition anymore :(

For some self-comfort,
at least I've eaten good food over the weekend :)
before I start losing some fats soon!

praying I'll wake up tomorrow to find some blur soul accidentally deposited $1000 in my acct.

Something Fishy

2010-05-25T23:39:00.002+08:00

Hello my almost abandon blog.

Piling school work and crazy schedule these days.
Submitted Brand critique assignment today,
and it feels like a load off my shoulders
Sadly, this is just the start.
In a few weeks' time, everyone will be rushing through assignments from all modules.
Though I sometimes hate the effects coffee have on me,
I guess its inevitable to stock up some coffee at home.

On a lighter note,
went fish spa with my guy last sat.
Awesome experience, abit pricey though.

=D

And here it is

2010-05-17T23:54:00.003+08:00

My left arm is now temporary useless.
Muscles have been hurting terribly,
and getting worse as I carry my laptop with my left arm.
Guess my right arm will soon be useless too,
since i'm dumping the heavy loads on my right arm.

Masina proposal submitted,
yet I've still got to work on Masina Indiv Assignment =/
What a chore! :(

Dinner 'together'

2010-05-14T23:42:00.003+08:00

Blogger has been pretty much neglected lately uh.
But oh well, 2 years of ranting about school life, what's new.
Still, I totally dislike those moments when I'm enjoying myself and.....
"OH CRAP! We need to do *insert assignment*! Need to hand in by *Insert a hell near deadline*!! "
And THAT happened earlier during dinner with Intan, Bibek and Jyings.
FINALLY the 4 of us could meet for dinner.
Endless jokes and nonsense.

Shared a cab home after that (excluding jyings, the only 'Westerner'),
We started chatting about candies and snacks from the 'olden days'.
And I still cnt get the fire engine cheese-snack thing out of my mind!
Its this cheese snack, in the sape of a fire engine or police car I think,
I kind of have the memory of it but the whole image and memory jus doesn't set in!
Grrr!! Frustrating!!

And thanks to all this thinking and laughing,
My head is hurting again. :(

Photos to be uploaded soon, once I get them from Intan!

Who said things would get better in Yr 3???

2010-05-07T22:46:00.003+08:00

Not yet the craziest period of this semester,
but I'm already feeling pretty weary of school.
And thanks to my unpleasantly long tuesday,
I'd always start feeling tired at day 2 of each week.

New grouping, new members to work with.
Though there's always some fun within something new,
I still miss the old times with Intan, Bibek and Jyings.
Crappy meetings, non-logical jokes. Totally miss it...

Still, amidst sucky or tired days in school,
little jokes and talks with people probably in the same plight as me,
and concerned souls asking about my days or making the effort
to entertain me, always make things better.

Couple of assignments due next week and the week after.
Time to get started.
And before I end this post,
here's an sms between me(plus bibek and Intan) and jyings last week.

She borrowed my water just before she rushed off for her bus,
and send a msg to me.

Msg from Jyings | Reply from me.

Bibek suggested that reply.
:P

Either way works

2010-05-04T23:04:00.002+08:00

Realised I've not been blogging as frequently,
and decided that I should liven up this site
with a little more text and images.

School have not been the least nice.
Oh well, what more could I expect, its life.
Tuedays are such a bitch.
Lessons from 9-5, with no break in between.
Those hungry enzymes are probably eating up my stomach and
other organs. =/

2 more days till I submit my form for Internship.
Still contemplating if I should go to events, PR or tv.
PR sure is widely needed in a competitive working environment like Singapore.
Yet I kind of prefer TV production and events management.
This is definitely not going to be one of those times where I just submit whatever it is,
and leave it all to fate.

Starting to get busy with MASINA, PR and Convex.
Work seems to be piling up,
yet the Z-monster's arriving rather early these days.

Time for me to head to bed!

Abit of photoshop!

And again

2010-04-29T23:41:00.003+08:00

I kind of like thu class.
Just lecture and DocPro.

DocPro today was boring though. Dnt do anything much.
Just sitting around and watching other group do their interview.
Internship talk at 5:30pm.
Sort of sets me thinking about my internship.
Wish I'm rich enough to afford and overseas internship.
But oh well... not for poor kid like me. Haha
Internship is definite though.
Thought of interning at some wedding planning company,
but guess chances aren't high for that.

Never mind that, Darling and me have planned our choices for internship :
Intern at the Parliament, or Casket service. And for overseas internship : White House!
Haha! okie obviously a joke.
But I kinda wonder what would be the lecturers' expression be
if I suggested to intern at Singapore Casket Service! HAHA!!

Anyway the talk lasted for about 2hours,
and Darling, Chang, me and Parry headed to Douby Ghout to meet
Kaivearn and Jiayi for dinner, at 8:30 :(
Restricted by a 'curfew', I had to leave earlier. -sigh-

Time to check my emails, fb, slack ard then SLEEP!! =D

Why is this not the end of the week???

2010-04-27T19:27:00.002+08:00

AHhhh~ So great to have food in my stomach.
Was totally starving while on my way home,
and had to wait for dinner when i've reached home. :(
So happy to be throwing food(non-literal of course) in my mouth now! =D

Last tue was not as bad as today, since MASINA was cancelled last week.
Today's 9-5 was further extended due to PR client's briefing
with energy only from a bread for breakfast, n sesame bun for lunch.
Headache still on since class ended. zzz...

Assignments handed out for PR.
Shall start on it today.
Tuition in 15 mins time!
And I'm tired.... @_@

It's about YOU

2010-04-23T22:29:00.002+08:00

This is only the first week of school and though I guess I shouldn't be saying this YET,

I'm already feeling drained,

and pretty much sick of school.

15 more weeks to go,

way much more stress to endure.

And THAT will be my life before this sem ends :(

WISP today was much better than BAE.

And tcher showed us a rather inspirational video.

Here it is!

I'm just THAT bored!

2010-04-23T10:46:00.004+08:00

*Warning! This post if full of rants cos IS class was too boring!*
**Continue Reading If you are That interested to know how Bored I am!**

Aaaahhhhh!!!
Year 3 IS sucks! No more slacking and 'meaningless' lessons like year 2.
Exams, quizes and notes.
Not something I've had for IS for the past 2 years :(

Teacher isnt making this boring lesson any more interesting,
but I shall be kind and stop spamming twitter with my complaints.
So I'm probably going to spend the next one hour ranting here,
whenever Tumblr bores me with the 'uncool' photos,
or when I have something to complain about in class.

______________________________________

So he's done with Bill Gates, breakup sms, cantonese Video.
What elseeee!!! T.T
I want go homeeeeeeee!! :(
My tumblr is So very much more alive thanks to boring lessons.
- Oh! and he finally joked! -
Okie his joke is done and I'm back to Tumblr. =.=
.... Ha-Ha- ha! ....... T.T

Still bored, and cold.
Battery running low, and no power plugs near me :(

And ALRIGHT!! Its Break time NOW!
AglioOlio from Zesty Tomato Finally! Shall Enjoy my food for now!
Hope I wont need to be back for more ranting later for WISP!

And some photos which i've gotten from tumblr!

And why this

2010-04-20T23:50:00.002+08:00

Have not been in the best of mood these days.
Mood swings have come and go, especially at night.
Getting easily frustrated at the slightest thing
and being so sensitive to things and words from others
and that affects my mood.
Grrr!!!

If a girl have to suffer from the period once a month,
guys ought to get their balls kicked once a month too.
Though my cramps are not as bad this month,
i'll still agree on that.
I either have to suffer from terrible cramps,
or the hormones going haywire.

Suck!

Last first day

2010-04-19T21:52:00.002+08:00

Having just 3 hours of lectures on first day of school
wasn't that bad.
MediaLaw (Medlaw) lecture was BORING!
Documentary Production (DocPro) lecture was much better!
Lecturer was great, and he's a Caucasian *ding ding ding!*
LOL okie just a normal craze for Caucasians,
too bad lecturer's nowhere near HOT! :(

Lessons from 9-5 tomorrow.
Spammed with Advanced Public Relations (PR) for the last 4 hours.
Hope I don't get my cramps tomorrow :(

This sem better be good

2010-04-18T22:49:00.003+08:00

School starts tomorrow, in less than 24 hours.
I'm going to be officially Year3.
Once again, complains about school and assignments
are going to be back here soon.

Wonder how my class would be.
And how it would be working with new people.
Though I do wish that I could continue working with people whom I'm already comfortable with

In just a blink of eyes,
holiday is over!
-insert whines and cries-

Well at least i've earned some money over the weeks,
and went for unit camp.
Finish reading a book
and watched many dramas and movies.
As well as spending time with my guy.
Too bad that I wont get to meet him before sch starts.

Hope my health won't screw up too badly this sem.
And now its time to sleep!

Rah rah Oo Lalaa

2010-04-16T23:20:00.004+08:00

Met up with Chang and Jt today!
Suppose to be an outing of 5,
but Jiayi and Sinling couldn't make it. =/

K-boxed at Amk, followed by L4D.

Not entirely an eventful day,
but time spent was worth it!
Did not manage to meet up much with the gals during this holiday.
And school is starting soon.

Cough and flu still on.
Argh! how do i clear those phlegm! =S

Yatty patty

2010-04-14T23:38:00.002+08:00

My guy had finally contacted.
Great relieve.

Cough and flu still persisting
and I miss my proper voice.
So sick of coughing non stop
!@##$%&
Rainy days isn't too good for my knee.
And its hurting now! =/
-Rain alert-

Morning shift again tomorrow.
Oh man i seriously don't wish to start school with
this kind of health or mood.
Tired.

2010-04-14T00:23:00.002+08:00

Feeling kinda unwell now.
Cough flu headache dizzy and nauseous. =.=
And school have not started yet.
The fact that my guy's admitted to hospital in Taiwan
and we have no updates about him the entire day
just isn't making me feel any better.

Hope my dear's doing fine.
Would love to see his msg or call soon...

Last week of holidays

2010-04-10T22:22:00.002+08:00

Have not been feeling very well today
but at least much better than when yesterday night.
Coughing sniffing and sneezing all day long.
And all that coughing's not doing my throat and voice any good =/
Praying that I'll get better for work tomorrow.

One more week till school starts
and I'm definitely not eager to go back.
This kind of blog post is repetitive -
how much I'm enjoying my hols,
and my dread to start school.
Same goes for the kind of posts
where i'll start ranting about how much I miss my hols
when assignments starts piling.

Suppose to keep the last week of my holidays free,
so that i'll enjoy to the fullest before facing the academic battle.
However, due to the fact that my pay hasn't been alot
for the past months,
I'm working till thursday.
Hope the last three days would be enough for me
to enjoy!

Flu bug's got me

2010-04-09T22:21:00.006+08:00

Can't describe how happy I was when i finally got back my Mac.
Entire keyboard area was changed.
Nice and white.
Learn that we should NEVER hibernate our Mac
for more than 8 hours,
as it is killing the Mac!
Gosh can't believe I've been killing it for the past 2 years!
:(

The day before,
My guy and I managed to catch 2 movies back to back.
Clash of the Titans ; Ju-On.

Clash of the Titans was quite nice,
but the boy thinks its not very well elaborated.
Ju-On was a TOTAL Failure!!
Many parts were left unexplained,
and worst, it turned out to be a complete comedy.
Even the ghostly makeup seems budgeted.

Had lunch that day in a cafe/bar
called Serenity.
Pretty awesome set lunch and friendly stuff.
Love the ambiance too!

Dear left for Taiwan today!:(
21 days later till i meet him..

Alrights pictures shall do the talking.
Need to get some rest soon.

Serenity cafe/bar

Hours later

2010-04-01T13:00:00.002+08:00

Gonna send my sickly mac to Sapura later.
Hope I'll still get to bring it home, fully cured.

Finally had time to meet up with Bibek and Intan yesterday
and its once again back to Nihon Mura at Tampines!
Usual dose of jokes and nonsense through the meal. =D

Next stop was FarEast,
where I had a hole burnt in my wallet :(
Wanted to save up enough and shop for all the things I wanted
all at one go, when Im in the shopping mood.
-sigh-
Now I'll probably be on a tight budget on my next shopping trip.
:/

Alright time to get ready Maccie to its doctor!
It better get well!!

Mr Vampire

2010-03-26T12:53:00.004+08:00

And after seeing the post below,
My sweetest dear asked me to..... Dream On!
:(
Few weekends left with my guy before he leaves for Taiwan,
was shortened, all thanks to his buddy.

-Sigh-

Oh well, at least he's not murdered by that buddy of his yet.

Jy and Sh coming over later,
for 'movie-screening' and dinner =)
Speaking of movies,
I've FINALLY found an old hongkong Zombie movie
which i remember watching when i was little.
Though the plot was not incredibly awesome
and neither was it very scary,
I'm still enjoying myself watching it all over again.
Nostalgic :)

Here's a shot clip from the film.

Cnt find the clips that dubbed in chinese. =/

All the right things

2010-03-25T00:18:00.010+08:00

There's always sometime in life,
when we'll wake up and wish that for just 1 day,
we could do anything we desire,
and be anybody we want.

If I get to choose,
this is how I want that awesome day to be.

I'll wake up from a comfy bed, in a beautiful room.
Have my colourful breakfast in a big cup!

Pick my favourite clothes and shoes
And Out of the house, armed with a camera for the day.

Some shopping maybe? With a Starbucks in hand. (Xmas Coffee, preferably)
What's life without friends right?

Sitting on a swing, going as high as the swing would bring me

Dinner time, with MANY food choices.

I'll tuck myself in bed and little fairies will be granting me the sweetest dreams.

For greater happiness, a dose of love would be essential, being there every moment, to savour the best of life.

Photo credits to.....
Flickr, tumblr, blogspot.
Basically, the Internet.

I am poor and fat. Neh

2010-03-22T18:55:00.005+08:00

Now my table is neat and tidy once again.
And I know, in probably 1 week it'll be messy again!
-sigh-
need someone who's willing to help me pack it every now and then
..... *hint*hint* :)

Watched 2 epi of Supernatural, and 1 movie, Forget me Not.
All this sitting and nibbling at snacks is not doing me good.
Flat tummy and firm thighs no more :(
I desperately need to exercise!
Bad timing of the month. Meh.

Considering to do some cross stitching.
But too poor to get the kit.
Taka work pay not in.
tuition pay not in.

ARGH! U MUGGLES STOP CHEATING MY MONEY !!!!
- sobs-

Avalanche

2010-03-17T23:34:00.003+08:00

I wish you would read my mind,
and understand how much
I need to run away,
and how torturing this had been
over the years.

You thought what you gave was great,
but you took away much more.
I desperately need to run away,
away from you and away from all that you're giving.

They say its wrong to hate you
but it seems to be the only right thing between us at the moment.
Well, you wished me death too, didn't you?
You hate me too, don't you?

I'm afraid of karma.
But you're a greater terror.

I can't believe you were the one, to build me up,
And tear me down...

Simple and great

2010-03-15T18:50:00.006+08:00

Though nothing totally awesome or eventful had taken place,
I've still been enjoying my holidays thus far.

Met up with Intan and Bibek last week,
and cycled at Pasir ris park.
The playground was fun!
Pics are still with Intan.

Weekend was spent with my guy of course.
Much fun and loves :)
(and food!)

Beef Cheese fries!

The XiaoLongBao was nice!

Due to my food loving camera that only
give me nice food photos and not very nice people photos,
I'm enjoying taking food photos now.

yeay! Done with my taiwan Drama, Down with Love.
Shall start reading my books now!

Demise of Mr Ng.

2010-03-09T22:44:00.003+08:00

Went to Mr Ng's wake today,
with Jiayi and Sihui.

Someone whom we always thought was strong,
and should be living well,
doing an awesome job as a Maths HOD,
left the living world just like this.

Life is filled with much of the unexpected.
And I hate it when i receive news of people whom I know,
and should still be well and alive,
is in fact dead.

Probably this world is full of troubles and stress for Mr Ng.
Hope that wherever he is, he is much more in peace.

R.I.P, Mr Ng T C.

Post assignment trauma??

2010-03-07T23:58:00.004+08:00

Though its already the holidays,
I still find myself thinking if I have any assignments
to rush for when I get home.
Is there such thing as post-assignments trauma or something?
If there is, I'm certain I'm suffering from that.
LOl oh well.....

Anyway, went out with my guy today,
with plans to get myself a watch and wallet.
My watch stopped working,
and I need a white watch!
yes White!
Only saw 1 white watch which i like,
only to be commented that its too big for my small wrist =/
Bought myself a hot red wallet!
=D

Lunch at Suki-Ya. Jap Steamboat!

Tried Macaroon for the first time and it was Nice!!

I miss air office

2010-03-04T21:57:00.002+08:00

HQ had changed so much.
New rules, new offices, new NS personnel.

Back from my first NCC camp for 2010,
with much happiness from working with new people,
and much sadness that the place that holds so much nice memories
of the older cadet officers and I, is gone.

Didnt sleep much since i was the admin OIC.
Having Huiqing as my assistant was great!
Much fun.

Feel so old as junior clts greets me.
-sigh-
time really flies...

Alright thats all for now
shall surf the net for awhile more before greeting my bed!

Meh

2010-03-02T14:57:00.005+08:00

Yes i am that angsty
This shall be my wallpaper
till i feel more angsty

kbai

Things jus happen

2010-03-01T23:49:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I think of someone randomly,
Someone whom I have not met for a long time.
And someday when that person was mentioned in a conversation,
I learn that this person is no longer living in this world.
Shocking.

A supervisor of mine for 2 weeks only,
when I was working in Mdm Butterfly,
Appeared in my thoughts a couple of times recently.
Never did I know that this lady,
who wasnt really an important person to me,
and someone whom I had only seen for 2 weeks a couple of years ago,
had passed away.
She was in her 30s, with 3 kids.

Its sad, how fate sometimes plays a nasty joke on people.
Our life could be shorter than what we would ever expect.
With everything ending so abruptly,
nothing much we could do about it.

Hope her kids and husband live on strong.

GoodBye Year2

2010-02-26T22:12:00.003+08:00

IT. IS. THE. END. OF. POLY. YEAR 2!!!!

Ended my year 2 with a pretty easy COMMIS paper.

This had been a very fruitful year,
not really in terms of academic,
but in making friends.
I have the awesomest groupmates this year.
A group of people whom I know I can count on
when I need help or encouragement.
Of course, the rest of my classmates are great too!
Love this class!

Had (some) pretty nice lecturers,
and I totally enjoy the epic moments
my group shared with some lecturers.
One such lecturer is Mr Matthew!
He's awesome!! Haha!!
LOVE his fRash Videos! hehe

Now that the tough academic year is over once again,
Shall spend my holidays wisely!!
To start off,
Shall watch the movies i've downloaded,
Read the books/magazine i've bought,
Sleep all I can!!

Wheeee!!!!!! =D

All there is to offer

2010-02-25T23:39:00.004+08:00

Memory space in brain running low.
Wish I could shove every info into my brain just like that.
Praying hard that COMMIS paper tomorrow wont kill me.

Best friend booked in camp today!
=(
1 more source of entertainment down.
- sigh -

Back to study!

Its a mess

2010-02-24T11:52:00.003+08:00

PR paper down,
CommIS Next.

Hope my PR paper would not pull down my marks for PR,
since i'm already pretty close to an AD with the current grades I'm getting.
Need to work hard for my COMMIS.
Got B for every project.
Need the paper to push my grades up to an A

Table currently in a total mess,
with notes, USB cables and stationary scattered all over

For some reason the picture just can't seem to depict how messy my table is
it seems thrice as messy sitting among the mess.
Feeling a little irritated by the mess,
but I can't seem to figure out what to be kept,
since i need everything! =/

Anyway, my rose's dried up.
Surprisingly, the petals were intact.
Wondered if I should throw it away,
or is there something I can do to it (keep it or something)
Meeting Izuan and intan later for lunch at Tpy.
Best fren going in tekong tomorrow!!
:'(
No more nonsense form that Bubble King for the time being.

Heres abit before bedtime

2010-02-22T02:21:00.006+08:00

Couple of things to blog about,
but I guess a summarise of the events will do.

Visiting of CNY is over!
After all the spendings before the newyear,
this little income came at the right time
though still not enough to cover what I need to 'replenish' back in my bank.
Shall do some proper financial planning after the exams,
working out the amount I'm going to earn from working,
and deciding how much should I spend each month.
-sigh- if only my dad prints money...Ha

And as what I had mentioned,
I'm working!
selling sunglasses in taka.
Back to that familiar places, with some familiar faces.
Everything at work is alright so far.
Can't wait for my pay!

Having to squeeze time in for studying was tiring!
Got my guy to help me print my PR notes,
and he even helped me compile and file them up.
Was craving for the old-school sweet PEZ the other time,
and he got it for me ytd! =D
2 happy pills for the day!

With a little postit note and joker sig :)

Can I complain that the beetle is ugly and i dun like insect??
hee!

Lunched at Manhattan Fish Market today before going for movie.
Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief!

AWESOME effects, Not very awesome plot, pretty bad lines.
Unless your willing to pay jus to catch those effects,
watch some other movies people!

Platter for 2..

The prawns are AWEOMEEEE!!!

OKie Time for bed!!

Its CNY/Vday!

2010-02-14T15:05:00.006+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year!
Happy Valentine's Day!

Recap on yesterday's happening.

Met my guy at JP,
before shopping around for my black formal top, for work
And he arrived with a stalk of rose! :)

Plan of the day included preparing lunch for his family at his house.
Not snatching credits, we had the help of his mum too.
Made the fried fishcake thing with the mushroom inside (JT's fav)
And it tasted better than my first try!
Will make some for you JT! Hehe

Photos of yesterday

From him.

Michael Jackson -Grass Jelly with soy milk

Spare Ribs by HIS mum.

New Year today, but not much of a newyear mood
Relatives from my mum's side arrive in the late morning.
Family politics made 'on-lookers' feel amidst a battle of shooting arrows

The only thing I'm enjoying the that very moment the
AngBaos landed on my hands.
Besides that, I would very much like to withdraw from this battlefield.
Thank you.

9 more days to 1st exam paper.
Guess I should start studying now.
How sad. Its newyear! :(

Its one of those free time!

2010-02-11T22:59:00.005+08:00

Bought this Mushroom Oats soup yesterday,
and completed my breakfast with it today.
Nice! AND healthy! =D

Having the time to even take a picture of the food

shows how free I am now.
Much happiness.

Suppose to meet Jt for gyming in school,
but that girl overslept or something
and had to cancel it.
Plan unchanged for me,
made a trip down to school for hardisk and my contact lens.
And then off to Orchard for more spending,
yet dnt manage to get any new year clothes :(

Dessert at EnDianXin at 313 was good!

Photo taken with my 2MP hp camera.
Pardon the quality

Moving on

2010-02-10T23:53:00.002+08:00

Incomplete without bibek! =/

Somehow though this sem is over,
The happiness and relieve I felt was not as much
as I had experienced last sem.

Anyway, is still glad I can rest and eat and sleep well.
Its pretty sad to think that our awesome class is splitting up,
with everyone pursuing modules of their interest.
Really enjoyed working and hanging around
those peeps

Now I shall enjoy the rest of my night,
watch shows, play games....
just do whatever i like!
Wheeeeee!!!!!

All around

2010-02-07T23:55:00.003+08:00

Still looking for my happy pills

I am envious, or probably utterly jealous
at how some people could just have things easy
Some things just did not make sense.
I'm still searching for the logic behind.

Maybe I'm losing it,
Maybe I'm just adapting to the facts of my life

Think the latter is more consoling.

something plain will do

2010-02-04T22:39:00.003+08:00

I want to....

- sit on a swing
- jump into a soft and comfy bed
- watch TV with a bag of chips and a bottle of Snapple
- feast into a tub of ice cream with someone, anyone
- file my nails and have a pretty manicure
- munch and chew on a mouthful of gummy candies
- eat a bowl of hot tomyam noodles on a rainy day
- whip up a few dishes with someone
- watch a nice movie at home with a bag of chips
- laugh and laugh at something stupid with someone

I just want to
be happy
doing something simple
with nothing else on my mind.
Maybe alone, maybe with frens, or maybe with that special one.

Abit more

2010-02-03T01:26:00.002+08:00

Have been feeling rather tired these days.
I need a break, without thoughts of work haunting me.

Dreamweaver is making me sick.
Looking at my SobrietyMovement folder,
thought of opening that makes me want to puke
I AM SICK OF WEBD

Had to dim the lights in my rm now,
just so my bro would not enter and give me another scolding
for staying up late.
Luckily there's no need to stay up late for work today.
=/

Darling called.
I miss late night talks with her...
Oh great. Her mum is back.
No more late night talks with her.
Realise I kinda enjoy late night talk with people.
Seems like the best time to crap and share things.

Job interview tomorrow.
Getting a job means less time wif my guy during hols.
On the bright side, I'm earning more money,
so more chances to enjoy and pamper myself
and those around me maybe?

Alright time for my sleep!

waiting

2010-01-31T23:00:00.004+08:00

Lunched at Flying Chillies Thai Restaurant at Somerset 313 with my guy.
Food was to my liking.
My thai stir fry Spaghetti *blah blah blah* (some long name) was Niceeee!!
His tomyam *blahblahblah*(another long name) was not bad too.

Shopped around, and bought a pair of shoes and a vest!
Seems like ages since i've shopped.

Catched Hachiko, the dog's story.
Very touching ending.
And the fact that it is based on a true story
made a greater impact.

the real Hachiko

Chang 19th

2010-01-30T13:14:00.006+08:00

Alright a less angsty post.
Chang's bdae was LITERALLY a blast!
She was Blasted with SPICY-ness! LOL
Awesome hot stuff!

wasabi, tobasco, Chilli flakes and Her 'Favorite',
Tartar Sauce! Oh and how could I forget. FLOUR!!
=D

We're not totally evil though.
After all that SURPRISES, the day ended pretty decent.

Photos shall speak!

Lastly, HAPPY AWESOME BIRTHDAY OLD WOMAN!!!! =D

Ps. No bdae cake for u. Make do with the Bdae Floor. hehe

2010-01-28T00:37:00.002+08:00

After such a long day.
No lunch, no dinner.
Only a piece of bread and some snacks for the day.
Left school at 11pm.
All i need is a good rest.
YES A FUCKING GOOD REST, PEACEFULLY!!!

You know what i'm doing!
You know i'm fucking tired!
But WHy the hell are you doing this!
How on earth does it satisfy you to behave and talk this way

I wish I could shout scream and cry it all out
If I could, I'll like to scream in your face,
asking you to let me off!
JUST FUCKING LET ME OFF!!!!!!

Paste the problems here

2010-01-27T01:21:00.002+08:00

Maybe I can copy and paste the health problems
I'm facing a few months ago
and this post will still be as updated.

Same old stuff.
Shoulders, knee, head, heart, gastric
and mood swings.

All this sudden gush of emotions coming from nowhere
The annoyance and irritation is causing me further frustration
ARGHHH!!! !@#$%^&*(

I need my holidays
I need my rest!!

wOopS

2010-01-23T01:59:00.003+08:00

Hmmmm.... in the middle of webD class....
Monster eating a cockeye-ed retard. HAHA

Riley test - screwed

2010-01-21T23:50:00.002+08:00

Just before i sleep,
I would still like to rant about my radio test today.
I still feel like banging my head when i think of it!

The OMG-feeling still lingers now!!!
OMG OMG OMG OMGGGGGGGG!!!!
I was this - (dash) close to going crazy and pulling my hair off
and screaming and burying my head underground
when i realised...
I PLAYED THE WRONG CALL-IN FILE!!!!!!!!!!
WHY WHY WHYYYYYYYYYYY did i have to name it 'Riley test'?????
It was e same name that i saved for my practice with sarah.
the whole call-in was a total JOKE!

That was what i totally call an EPIC-FAILURE!!!

"food review" - With a Pinch of salt ; Jack's Place

2010-01-18T16:44:00.011+08:00

Had lunch with my guy at a cafe in Tanjong katong - With a Pinch of salt.

Very cute and cosy place,
with a friendly staff (whom i think is a shop owner)
And nice food at reasonable price!

Often had the impression that western food,
esp Fish n Chips would give me the very sick and full feeling
before finishing,
but food there was not oily, and still taste awesome!
Paid $3.50 more for a complete set consisting of soup,drink and dessert

Small 'lounge' at the side of the cafe.

Menu!

Even tables are 'themed'

Soup oF the day - Cream of carrot

Some crazy dish he ordered with ALL sort of meat.

My fish n chips

My dessert -
Caramel pudding, which surprisingly is not as sweet as it looks

His dessert - Bread and butter.

hmmm......

After abit of travelling after lunch,
then....ICE-CREAM @ island creamery!

Fresh banana & bandung

Blackforest & Soursop

After a series of food and more food yesterday,
A retail therapy me and intan planned today
turned out to be food therapy instead,
@ Jack's Place.

Was quite disappointed with my Steak.
Some portion was cooked medium, some more well done, and a portion was less cooked. =.=

Note to self -
*I MUST NOT GET FAT! I MUST NOT GET FAT!!*

Nothing goes

2010-01-16T00:13:00.003+08:00

Indeed, this is not an awesome week.
Next week probably would not be any better.
WebD's got to be 100% done.

Currently feeling rather tired,
but just didnt want to leave my blog being too dead.
So here I am, typing any random words/sentence that comes to mind
Very tired these days.
People should stay away from Mass Comm

I'm liking Alicia Keys songs

Oh mannn =/

2010-01-12T00:31:00.002+08:00

Start of a busy week.
Totally not looking forward to this week
Projects and events pertaining to the assignments piled up.
Countdown- 9 more days to webD deadline.
nothing much seems to be done.

Feature writing magazine's another worry too.
And why does PR have to bomb us another proposal assignment
at such time of distress?!?! :(

Pimples are out to protest the worries.
Eyebags out to protest on the lack of sleep.
Gastric's out to protest on my rubbish diet.
Mood swings out to protest against the stress

Assignments and deadlines are an utter Disaster!!

plastic me

2010-01-10T14:59:00.008+08:00

Got bored, found a pic of myself with only eyeliner on.
And decided to photoshop it.

Photoshoped, non-photoshopped, The EYE

All other 'makeup' and darkened 'eyeliner' done by photoshop!
Fake coloured contact lens FAIL! haha.
Looks like i'm wearing 2 different contact lens. LOL
I look SOOO FAKE!!! =/
SRUTTY ROOK!

Not again

2010-01-09T15:30:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 12noon.
Not feeling very well.
Giddy spell is here to greet me again.

WebD, Magazine and PR Media Kit.
3 more assignments to go.
Daily dose of adrenaline rush in my body is killing me.
I need a break
Those mood swings need to leave me alone!

Irritate me NOW and I'll CHOMP your HEad off!!

Mass Mess

2010-01-08T21:47:00.003+08:00

Result of being too lazy and tired after a long day and night's work.

7

2010-01-06T19:28:00.003+08:00

My very demoralising folder.

At Mac waiting for Sham.
Finally get to meet up with him for a meal.
=D

my belated resolutions

2010-01-05T23:35:00.003+08:00

5 days past the new year,
and i'm here to lay my 2010 resolutions. Hehe
Slow, but I'd still get it done!

So here goes...
- Less procrastination, more work done
(I think i said that every year but it just dsnt comes true)
- Save up for the many many things (Shall list them later)
- Finish reading the books i bought in 2009
- Be neater (Dear would love this)
- Have better health
- Gatherings with friends
- Stop staring at stranger who had unintentionally irritate me
- Make more friends

Last but not least,
- Another Awesome year with my guy.

With that i end my list of resolutions for this year.
Recently i've got many things in my mind
which i'd like to save up for.

- A very pretty clock for my empty wall
- Painting to decorate my wall
- Polaroid
- Lomo camera (Intan says a digital one is better..hmm..)
- Better digi camera (I know I only have 1 pair of eyes, but i really like to have better photos)
- A new swivel Chair
- Driving license
- Countdown plan (if my guy and I manage to make our plans happen)

With a list like this,
I'm mentally prepared to only be able to
afford 1/5 of the items mentioned

2010, What have you got installed for me??

No dogs

2010-01-05T20:29:00.007+08:00

Busy schedule has resulted in me constantly
updating outdated photos.

Food Pic from saturday...

My guy's craving for TauHUay and my love for Portugese tarts
got us to Rochor's beancurd shop.

Watched Old Dogs with Chang yesterday,
for feature writing review
Only to find out today that
MsKoh 'changed' the rule and we could do
movies such as sherlock Holmes and Avatar.
GGrrrrr!!

Old Dogs seriously could have done better.
Plot was random with occasional moments of
- "Hey I am Joking! Please laugh!"-

Had late lunch at this place, Indulge located at the basement.
Lunch promotion was a great deal.
$10.90++ for soup of the day,
drink,main course and single scoop ice-cream.

SOD was Potato Soup

Chang's Aglio Olio
CLose up of my Black Pepper sirloin.

Forget to take pic of our ice cream thou.

Alright slacking time is over.
Time to get down to work!
Yet i'm getting sleepy now..

Do and Don't

2010-01-04T00:09:00.004+08:00

My guy's going over to brunei for training,
and he had decided to blog something today.
Guess his intention was to express his concern or love through the blog,
but he had made a mistake!
And kind me had helped to edit it,
but unkind him decides to deny my effort and edit it again himself.
Here's a screenshot of what SHOULD be in his blog
(if he hadnt edited it himself)....

click on image to enlarge

(either way im going to die when he comes back,
so why not jus post the screenshot here! ) haha

Anywayz,
SCh's opening tmr,
but my class only need to attend sch on tue!
No CommIS!
Still, the thought of sch reopening
and countless piles of work and stress awaiting.
such a turn off.
Praying hard i'll leave to see sunrise 3 wks later.

website only like 8% done?
How awesome is life man.

1st year

2010-01-03T01:32:00.004+08:00

Abit late, but this post still made it here!

To start,
Happy 1st Year Dear!! =D

Its been a wonderful year with you ard
Thanks for everything.
My very useful MPB. (multi-purpose boyfriend)
My very nonsensical entertainer
My super-like-to-act-cute donkey
My Boyfriend.

Made a yearbook ourselves!
Here's a Sneak Peak!

Dear bought me to Build-a-bear and we got a dog!
Look at who's in the house......

Meet DUKO!!!

okie Dear here's my POst!!
Where's MINE?????? XD

Yeay! updated!

2010-01-03T00:46:00.006+08:00

Many things to blog about.
Shall try to do a summary of everything!

Xmas was pretty well celebrated, but without my darling :(
Walked around clark quay with my guy, Chang and Honey,
and we eventually settled for a bar/pub
Yellow Jello (think thats the name)
Alright pics shall talk.

Went timbre with Jying, Bibek and my guy few days back, for webD!
Not entirely totally productive with photos,
but had fun anyway.

Countdown with My guy,Chang,Jiayi and Parry at rochester.
Got the garden seats.
Nice!

Me and Chang gt pretty drunk. LOL
hangover was TERRIBLE!!!
But at least it was an awesome night!!! =D

Went to catch 2 movies with my guy today!
Avatar and Sherlock Holmes.
Both Very AWESOME Shows!!

hmm think that's all for now!
....
A separate post on 31/12/09 will be above, marking the special day!

immobile

2009-12-29T02:18:00.003+08:00

this is the best reason so far for me to be here, blogging.
2am, and i'm dying from a gastric.
Which explains me stuck here on my desk,
wif a pillow against my tummy,
chin on laptop.
Immobile.

Can't stand up, not to mention setting up my mattress
(since my grandma's staying over and sleeping at my bed)
waiting waiting waiting, for gastric to subside and move to slp. =/

Very stress. I need a stress relieve pill.
And i definitely need to chill.
I've been so tensed up lately.
Definitely bad for my gastric.
Rushing through my assignments,
while many others had their fair share of fun for this holidays.
A big big sigh...

I seriously have no idea what to type.
But i'm freaking still stuck here =/
Oh mannnn......not fun not fun not fun!!!
zzzzzzzzzzz

photos on hold

2009-12-27T11:59:00.003+08:00

Many photos that i'm suppose to upload,
but no time to do so.
If only blogger have a function that allow me to dump all the photos in it,
edit them, help me create a collage and auto upload.
Oh well...one day technology might really help you know.

Left with website and e newsletter to work on.
But progress of website is getting me rather worried.
Haiz..
Going to animal shelter later, for I&E!

OFF to prepare!